Why is it that someone can be surrounded by people and yet still feel alone? That they can be in the middle of an office; or a party or even with their own families, and yet they feel totally alone. Humans are social creatures; there is no denying that. So why, even if we are in proximity to others, can people experience feelings of isolation?
If I was to write a list of my top 5 fears they would go something in this order:
1) Isolation
2) Having my loved one cheat on me
3) Velociraptors ... *Thanks for reminding me about them xkcd!* >=(
4) Being toyed with in the sea by a Great White Shark
5) The thought of someone hating me.
Now its obvious why the raptors and shark is there... but why are the other 3 all to do with other people? If I was to analyse this myself I would assume:
My fear of isolation probably comes from growing up and living (comparatively) far away from all people I know. Then having lived closer to them for a few years I have now had to move away again. I guess its the feeling of helplessness, even though I know I am not.
Having my loved one cheat on me? I guess that comes from knowing I would rather die then cheat. I think cheaters are wretched empty people. I don't mean cheetahs. Cheetahs are pretty cool. Cheaters though, they are the suck. To put yourself in that sorta relationship of trust, and have it mean nothing? You'd have to be a very self absorbed and callous person.
Thought of someone hating me? I think this is probably a fear that comes from having grown up in a society where ragging on each other is common place and well and truly encouraged. Don't get me wrong, I love bagging friends out in a friendly 2-way kinda way. I don't like the people that just cut for the sake of cutting. I loathe the thought that someone would actually hate me for who I am, that they would dislike me for being me. That they would think bad of me in any way. That being said, I refuse to bow to peer pressure and be the guy that "will do anything". I still remain my own man; I just hate thinking that perhaps if I'd started a conversation differently, or if there had been other circumstances that maybe I'd have gotten along with them and there wouldn't be any animosity.
What a world we live in.
